“I pressed on”!

Today i was sent a picture and the saying on it really spoke to me. The saying on the picture said Depression rearranged says I pressed on. For years i have struggled with major depressive disorder, it effects my everyday life. Anyone who has struggled with depression knows exactly what i am talking about. I want to talk about some of the personal struggles i have face with my ongoing depression.

The first thing i want to elaborate on is the daily struggle it takes to even get out of bed sometimes, and with 4 kiddos at home i cant stay in bed, that’s a good thing though… my kids have saved me from several situations that i didnt need to be in. I can’t tell you how thankful i am for my children.

Depression is like a big heavy blanket wrapped around your entire body. It’s dark, heavy, and debilitating at times. Some people just expect you to be “ok” and sometimes you cant! Trust me when i say we want nothing more than to be ok! People need to understand it is not that easy. Some people think you should be “ok” if you just take your medicine. Guess what its still not that easy! I have taken depression meds for years, one of the highest doses as a matter of fact. Its a daily struggle every single day to function in society. Its ok to not be ok.

It’s ok to not be ok. We are not bad people for having depression. We are not bad people, we are not bad parents. We just fight harder to be a functional person, we fight harder to be the parents we need to be. Fighting through my depression has made me realize the mother I need to be to maybe stop the depression from continuing onto my children!!

I am doing the things i need to do to overcome this depression and i will get better. I will end this depression, I will take my medicine, i will do my therapy in order to get better, and I will not let this pass onto my kids.

That being said, I will not let myself feel bad if I do have a bad day. I will push through the bad days and come out on top! Check on the mommas that have depression, make sure they’re ok. We will tell you we’re ok even when we’re not. Offer help, give us a nap, an uninterrupted, and talk with us. We will push through. Most importantly pray for us.